i know i know .
but i REALLY REALLY have to make some things clear .

1 . THE DEFINITION OF SPAM/SPAMMING . NOT THAT CANNED MEAT . ._.
- To cause a newsgroup to be flooded with irrelevant or inappropriate messages.
- Messages/e-mails sent indiscriminately to multiple mailing lists, or newsgroups; junk e-mail .

2 . i know that you guys are suspecting its him . BUT PLEASE DO NOT ACCUSE ANYONE BEFORE HAVING CONCRETE EVIDENCE TO PROVE THAT HE IS THE CULPRIT .

3 . i treat her like a best friend as well . i will try to investigate into the matter as much as i could .

4 . SERIOUSLY DONT SAY THAT IM BIASED . BOTH PARTIES ARE IMPORTANT TO ME AND I WILL NEVER MAKE A CHOICE BETWEEN BOTH PARTIES .

sorry for all the things that has happened .
but its either we give up pursuing the matter ,
or everyone co-operates to investigate this matter all together .
stop all these . please . im sick of this . i expected this to happen anyway . its no one's fault . its mine . ok ? sorry for bringing all these trouble to you guys . every one of you . i dont mind being alone . i have always been facing all my problems by myself anyway . and now im still alone .


aww .
i love you so much .
(:
the sweetest thing happened yesterday ..

went to edwin's house ..
we ate ,
we laughed .
we fought ,
we laughed .
we sang ,
we listened to music .
we played the guitar ..
and so much more ..

after that ..
we went to west coast mall .
probably because its new ..
and need take shuttle bus from clementi mrt .
lols ..
so much fun ..
then went to IMM .
WENT TO SPAGHETTI TOO AND HAD SIRLOIN STEAK .

lols .
im so dead ..
but its nice ..
then im like a little kid ..
watching my papa teaching me how to cut ,
and savour the taste of the steak ..
even though i just want to stuff the whole thing inside my mouth .
=x

then took the shuttle bus to jurong mrt ..
took bus to bukit panjang .
then he walked me home ..
rested on the way . ( i was wearing high heels for the whole day)
sat beside a girl with her dog .
the dog loved edwin so much .
kept staring at him wors ..
lols .
but the girl kept dragging the dog with a leash .
sobs .
poor doggy .
haiz ..
went home ..
ITS WAS ALREADY 11.15 PM .
luckily my father never scold me .
i was so scared .
T.T

thanks darling for sending me home .
and making me feel so happy yesterday .
i love you .
<33


WENT TO YUE QI HOUSE TODAY !!!!
:D
i missed her house so much lar .
different from last time .
so sad ..
Yan Ling and Krystal wasnt there .
ate lots of things there .
played a game like reversi .
i lost ..
because she cant put anywhere .
and she has more than me .
T.T
so sad for people who didnt go .
=x

YUE QI I LOVE YOU .
:D
dont forget about that mark that i left in your room ,
xD


i have no idea why im doing this quiz ..
but ..
just do it lar .
lols .
my good friend ask me to do de .
so just do lors ..
:D

So heres the quiz KRYSTAL asked me to do.
1.Do you have secrets?
- definitely .. who doesnt have secrets ??

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
- NO WAY .

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
- if its a ' No Homework Day ' then yes . :D

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- serious shopping . (:

5. Who in this world do you hate most?
- my third brother ( totally a immature bastard ) AND THAT INDIAN MAN ON THAT BUS .

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- depends :D

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:
- Crazy - Simple Plan .
Crush - David Archuleta .
Perfect - Simple Plan .
Stay Young - We The Kings .
Check Yes Juliet - We the Kings .
Thunder - Boys Like Girls .
Five Minutes to Midnight - Boys Like Girls .
The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls .
In the End - Linkin Park .
How To Touch A Girl - JoJo
Dance Hall Drug - Boys Like Girls .

STILL GOT ALOT LAR .
LAZY WRITE .

8. If the person you like secretly is already attached, what would you do?
- nothing at all . but i only love Edwin now (:

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?.
- yups . :D

10. What makes you angry?
- lots of things .

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- hmm . i dont know .

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- God , and the people around me .

13. What is the most important thing in life?
- enjoy every single day HAPPILY like there's no tomorrow ..

14. Single or attached? With who?
- proudly attached . with EDWIN (and his toy dog ) :D

15. What is your favourite colour?
- black , red , pink , purple . (:

16. Would you give all in a relationship?As in what type?
- i do . but it depends on who i share that relationship with .

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- i wouldnt like two at once . i only have enough love for a guy . (:

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- depends o_o

19. What do you want to tell to the someone you like?
- i love you so much . NEVER LET YOU GO . love you . <33

20. 5 people I have tagged to do
- EDWIN . ZHITING . SIYING . CINDY . XIANGTING .


you have no rights to call her useless .
you have no rights to call me a piece of shit on the floor
you are her son .
you are my brother ,
she gave birth to you .
she gave you education .
she gave you the best that she could give .
i gave in to you for everything .
i cant help but feel sorry for my mum .
why did she gave birth to a son like you ??!
i know .
God sent you to Earth for a purpose .
God was the one who created you .
but our mother was the one who went through 8 months of pain to have you .
you think i dont know anything ??
did you know ..
our dear mother had a miscarraige .
they pamper you .
and so much more .
they went through so much .
just for you .


in my whole life .
one of the things are ..
BITCHES .
seriously lar .
who likes them ?
i have really seen enough of them .
just saw a bitch's blog .
totally making herself look like an angel to others .
even when she's supporting the wrong stuff .

but to me .
A BITCH IS ALWAYS A BITCH .
AND A BASTARD IS ALWAYS A BASTARD .
dont try to cover yourself .
wanna be one , be one all the way .
if not dont be one ..
as a bitch , i can say .
you people are a TOTAL DISGRACE TO ALL THE BITCHES AND BASTARDS IN THE WORLD .
YOU DONT EVEN HAVE THE QUALITIES TO BE ONE .
if you dare to be one ..
or even act like one ,
why not let the world know you are one ?
do you think your actions wouldnt get people into trouble ?

use your brain and think .
IT WAS DONE FOR OUR OWN GOOD , INCLUDING YOU .
IF YOU DONT APPRECIATE IT , FINE .
BUT YOU DONT NEED TO REPAY KINDNESS LIKE THAT RIGHT ??!
I DONT NEED TO BE KIND TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU .
WHY SHOULD I ?
EVEN WHEN IM A BITCH .
I DONT HARM PEOPLE WHEN THEY ARE KIND TO ME .
I REPAY KINDNESS WITH KINDNESS .

IF YOU KNOW IM TALKING ABOUT YOU .
AND IF YOU HAVE THE GUTS .
COME AND PROVE TO ME THAT YOU ARE DOING THE RIGHT THING .
SUPPORTING THE CORRECT PEOPLE .
AND THAT YOU ARE A BETTER BITCH THAN ME .
IF NOT ,
YOU BETTER WATCH YOUSELF .


HIIE MY DEAR BLOG READERS !
finally back to post .
last friday ..
went to the Asia Conference with SISTER/BROTHER/PAPA (you know what i mean ).
it was like my first (or is it the second ?) time i went to the Expo .
its so BIG !!!!!!!!!
hahas .
meet Yan Ling for lunch there and help her book the rest of the table for her friends .
see im such a good girl .
xD

after that , went for a Elective .
its ' Building Your Self Image ' or something like that .
sorry lar .
but i didnt pay much attention to the title .
=x

went to a concert with Yue Qi , Yan Ling , Krystal , Kok Ho , and Mr Low !
it was put up by many choirs .
on the way there , so many things happened .
me acting like a sec 1 (or even like a primary school kid) ,
got lost on the way there ,
there are just too many !
the concert was splendid .
the harmony between the different sections is great .
and the soprano 1 can sing so high notes !!!!
AHH .
im so jealous .
T.T

after that went to Mac and took photos .
hahas .
wanted to buy chocolate macflurry .
but leh ..
MACHINE OUT OF ORDER .
AHH !
so had to just settle with fries .
Yan Ling and Mr Low took the mrt together .
xD
then i hoped onto Krystal's father's car .
thanks Krystal and her father .
(:

whe i reach home .
i ate one big bowl full of crab !
xD
HAHA .
be jealous of me .

the rest ,
i dont wanna talk about it .
(:


sian .
choir camp is finally over !
yay !
NO MORE ANSWER HUNT .
:D

got the SYF 2009 set piece .
White Horses .
i love my joke so much .
xD
its so funny lar !
dont you guys agree ?
but sadly , got kicked out of the room during choir .
talk too much .
=x

NONO .
and i have no idea why im one of the understudies for Resource Manager . ( sound so nice )
lols .
:D

why ?
why do you wan me to do that ?
i dont wan to hurt anyone .
and i have no intention to do it either .
stop giving pressure !
i hate you so much .


TO ALL THE NO LIFE SPAMMERS OUT THERE .
GO GET A LIFE WILL YOU ??!
IM DISGUSTED BY HOW LAME YOU ARE .
IF YOU CANT GET A LIFE .
GO GEYLANG SELL YOUR BUTT OR SOMETHING .
THANKS .


really sian seh .
T.T
played audi with sin and chrystine yesterday .
i let him win de wors .
lols.
im so good hor ?
:D
and XIIISinzx sucks !
xD

i really got nothing to blog .
except that i just forgot to brush teeth .
=x

Lord , i need a sign .
im still trapped in between .
its feels really horrible .
Please Lord , speak to me once more .
Amen .


SPAGHETTI EILEEN .
ASTOR .
MICHELLE .
KRYSTAL .
JERI .
:D

WAH .
today is really a busy day wors .
morning ..
i woke up and bathe .
play audi awhile , then go eat .
after that i change clothes and rushed to miss lim's house .
had alot of fun at miss lim's house ..
played that stacking game (dont know what its called) .
then after that play scrabble .
had a conversation outside her toilet .
serious toilet conversation .
o_____________________o

after that , realised that we were going to be late .
so rushed to the church lor .
but on the bus ..
jeri wan call people .
then go : ' SHH ! SHH ! SHH !"
xD

then we reached there .
the buzz group was like SO big !
and jeri was like isolated after winnie came and sit beside him .
his face turn so red .
HAHAHA .
during service , he was like clapping with a blank face .
super funny .
should have seen his face .
but im so dead on tuesday .
=x

after that ,
chatted outside the church and took photos .
then krystal's father came to fetch her .
now left with astor , michelle , jeri , and me .
went to the hawker centre and makan .
all of them ate stay beehoon .
then something ( i dont know how to explain that feeling) happened .
i was so shocked .
lols .

ISLAND CREAMERY .
jeri : strawberry & teh tarik ice cream .
astor : ping pong milo & teh tarik ice cream .
michelle : soursop & teh tarik ice cream .
spaghetti : COOKIES&CREAM ice cream and MUDPIE ! COOKIE OVERLOAD !
:D
they so jealous .
then all income tax me .
lols .
mudpie rocks .
(:

took 67 bus back home .
we were all standing .
got a few bags .
super suspicious .
then ask people , AND POINTED AT THE BAGS SOMEMORE .
no one claimed .
so me and michelle go tell the bus driver .
then got one indian guy was scolding jeri and astor .
when we went back we also got scolded .
he was like ' What ?! My bag cannot put there issnt ?! must go and complain ar ?! why you go and complain ?!! HUH ??! '

my first reaction .
i was totally shocked and really not in a good mood .
i wanted to shout back ,
" OF COURSE CANNOT LAR ! YOU THINK YOUR HOUSE ISSNT ?! CAN ANYHOW PUT YOUR THINGS ANYWHERE ?! YOU KNOW WE KEEP POINTING AT THE BAG ALSO NEVER SAY IS YOURS . WE WAN COMPLAIN IS OUR BUSINESS . YOU DONT WAN US COMPLAIN THEN PUT THE THING ON YOUR LAP OR BESIDE YOU LAR . YOU THINK WHAT ? YOU MY ELDER SO WHAT ? ANYHOW SCOLD MY FRIENDS ? I WAS THE ONE WHO WENT TO COMPLAIN . YOU WAN YOU SCOLD ME LAR !! SCOLD THEM FOR WHAT YOU ******** ******* ***** MAN ?! YOU WAN PICK A FIGHT ISSNT ? COME LAR . YOU GOT THE GUTS YOU COME PUNCH ME LAR ! I FIGHT WITH YOU FIRST . SEE IS I GO HOSPITAL OR YOU GO JAIL . '

sorry lar .
i know alot of censored words .
but really unhappy .
havent really angry yet .
i dont really wanna talk about the rest .
=x

i heard You loud .
i heard You clear .
thank you for speaking to me .
after so long since the first time You spoke to me .
i am glad that i asked for your opinion , and listened to Your Words .
i feel very blessed to be a child of God .
i have faith in you .
at that point when i had so little faith , so little trust .
you took it all , but gave me so much more .
now i have truly understood , and experienced it for myself .
A Little is all God needs .

Hallelujah . and Amen .


seriously i dont think im busy enough .
so let me put up my dear holiday schedule (as in days that im free) ,
and call me out k ?
:D
if you shuai ge then i confirm go de .
joking lars .
xD

but i shall exclude Sundays .
as thats my 'stay at home and be a guai kia' day .
see im so good .
(:

17th November : FREE .
20th November : FREE .
21st November : FREE .
22nd November : FREE .
24th November : FREE .
25th November : FREE .
26th November : FREE .
27th November : FREE .
28th November : FREE .
29th November : FREE .


went to lot 1 with yueqi and zhiting .
had kfc for lunch . zinger student special .
zhiting and yueqi had the cheesy bbq meltz .
later saw xiangting and AHEM ,
treated yueqi , zhiting and me to ice cream .
thanks man .
:D
then SISTER edwin came .
lols ..
he told me he was putting on make up and wearing a skirt .
scare me ..
T.T
then yueqi said she saw something .
o_______________o

but never mind lars ..
we were having fun whacking each other .
as in me and sister .
but i guess im so dead .
hit HER back on the lrt .
xD

LALAS .
i said nothing .
(:


I think I could like you
I already do
feelings can grow but
they can go away too
you're takin my hand
lookin into my eyes
don't be in a rush to
get me tonight

feel somethin happenin
could this be a spark?
to satisfy me baby
gotta satisfy my heart

do you know how to touch a girl?
if you want me so much
first I have to know
are you thoughtful and kind?
do you care what's on my mind?
or am I just for show?
you'll go far in this world
if you know how to touch a girl

do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you
but I keep holding back
cause I can't seem to tell
if you're fiction or fact
show me you can laugh
show me you can cry
show me who you really are
deep down inside

do you feel somethin happenin?
could this be for real?
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal
do you know how to touch a girl?

if you want me so much
first I have to know
are you thoughtful and kind?
do you care what's on my mind?
or am I just for show?
you'll go far in this world
if you know how to touch a girl

bring me some flowers
conversation for hours
to see if we really connect
and baby if we do
ooh i'll be givin all my love to you
ohh

do you know how to touch a girl?
if you want me so much
first I have to know
are you thoughtful and kind?
do you care what's on my mind?
or am I just for show?
you'll go far in this world
if you know how to touch a girl

do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl? (yeah, yeah)
do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

you'll go far in this world
if you know how to touch a girl




im just this helpless .
this vulnerable .
a strong girl that never cries .
is now crying almost everyday until her eyes are swollen .
i am totally speechless .


yay !
today got choir !
:D
and MR LIM IS BACK !
even though i prefer ms lai ..
but im still happy for him !
so sad yue qi never come ..
i was so lonely ..
no lar ..
did have fun chatting with yan ling , krystal and a few guys from the choir .
after choir ..
saw shiya ..
and had a very nice (and crazy) chat with her together with krystal .
because waiting for yue qi and zhiting .
but leh .
had to wait for KOK HO for quite long .
why wait for him ar ?
because i had lunch at MAC with yue qi , zhiting , krystal ..
and not forgeting the choir's dearest chairman .
*coughs*
lunch also cheered me up .
you guys seriously should be there .
looking at some people getting teased ..
so fun !
xD
cant wait for the day of choir camp to come .
tell me my position leh !
but i know i definitely not going to be the future chairman or vice chairman .
:D

i wan to clear this misunderstanding .
i heard enough already .
i did not use anyone .
and i do not treat anyone like a puppet or toy or whatever .
i know how it feels to be treated like that .
so i will never do that to anyone .
14 years .
i have gone through much more than anyone i know of .
pain . hurt . denial . feeling of lacking something . and how it feels to lose something unwillingly .
just to name a few .
i gone through that so many times .
especially since the june holidays this year .
these 5 months ,
wasnt easy at all .
and i still got an even tougher future .
if you guys think you have been though so much more for the past 5 months .
come and compare with me in front of my face .
dont talk behind my back .
unless you dont have the guts ,
then you deserved to be called a coward .
if that not enough , i got more .


ok lar .
sister jealous le .
say last post only got one sentence mentioning HER .
firstly .
grats to everyone who completed their o levels .
namely SISTER , NIRMAL . BRYAN . ALL CCKS SENIORS . (:
hahas.
went to sister's house to watch video .
about a japanese gameshow..
then the guys are all transformed into girls !!
and all very chio somemore !!
WAHH .
*jealous*
thanks sister for letting me watch .
next time i shall make you as pretty as them .
:D

had a msn conversation with the whole pervert party ..
(except mickey)
=x
so fun lors !
till next time !
(:











i love this photo a lot .
as i done a similar drawing a lot .
taken from the link below .
http://www.flickr.com/photos/imagonovus/2179770764/
(:

to me ,
this photo does have another meaning .
other than the reflections of ourselves ,
it also shows that every single one of us ..
have at least 2 different sides of yourselves .
and that we will always try and put a smile on our face ,
tend to hide our true unhappy emotions within .
don't you agree ?
we bottle up our frustrations , troubles , doubts ..
just to name a few .
even if we do open up and tell people how we are feeling ,
we would still feel that its better to keep some secrets to ourselves .

people might say :
I understand myself more than anyone else , so even if I tell them everything , they wouldn't understand what I'm feeling right now .

have you ever thought ..
that we do lie to ourselves ,
and that some things we do would make people happy ,
but it had a more negative than positive effect on them ?
we may not be able to realise some mistakes that we have done .
only until when someone tells you about your mistakes .
sometimes ..
even when people tells us about our mistakes .
we sometimes have that tendency to deny it .
its not wrong to have doubts about it ..
but if you find out that it is true ,
then definitely its time to change .

we may feel ..
that people around us does not understand how we feel ,
especially our parents .
but don't forget .
they have been teenagers once as well .
and at that point of time when they were teenagers ,
life was probably tougher than compared to now .
but even when times are different ,
some things never changes .
depression , trying to juggle work with studies , working to feed their family since young .
some of our elders would have gone through all these before .
it just depends on yourself .
whether you want to open up to them or not .

treasure your loved ones while you can .
don't start regretting about the present in the future ,
when they have already left .
its already too late .



CUTIEEEEEEEE .




this kitty is so cute !!!!
I must have it !!




this photo is so funny !
by the way .
that guy on the right .
he's David Archuleta .
super cute right !
xD

yue qi .
hope these photos would cheer you up .
(:


AHAHA .
went to church with QIQI today .
=x
lols ..
and yue qi spelt my name wrongly lor .
T.T
SPAGHETTI EILEEN TOO HUITING . ( MUMMY. )
thats my name .
lols .
i got so old meh ??!
never mind lar .
cell group / fuel was so fun !
many nice nice people there ..
*ahem ahem*
yueqi say go there must wear formal .
i dont know what to wear ..
then i wear dress lor ..
so many people looking at me .
still wondering whether its good or not .
xD

monday ..
when sister come back ..
i wan sister go with me to suntec city liao .
if not i force you cross dress .
and no MOOMOO for you .
:D

i have no idea where to start from ..
lost it all .
now ..
i suddenly have that desire to go ..
to that place .
where i shall be really be alone .


haiz .
today i going to go to church with QIQI !
havent gone to church for a long time le .
my parents dont let wor .
):

lols .
yue qi ..
DONT EAT MY FRIENDS HOR .
spaghetti that has attitude are close to extinction le .
(:

is this what i am supposed to feel right now ?
why do i always feel the same thing ?
compared to other people .
its totally different .
what is it that im feeling right now ?!


today was so fun !
i definitely felt so much better .
eating with Yanling and QIQI ,
watching QIQI eat her takoyaki ,
seeing Krystal & Yanling bickering at the piano ,
and QIQI calling me ..
SPAGHETTI TOO HUITING .
but still say my hair look like spaghetti .
never mind ..
at least better than maggie mee .
:D
it was so fun .
made me forget about everything i was thinking about .
hahas .
so sian ..
sister go malaysia le .
pang seh me .
dont wan me liao .
):
果然是死 sister ..
must must come back lor .
i wan force you to cross dress .
=x

Note to choir members : Those who wants go go to Miss Lim's house on 15th November , please confirm whether you are going or not as i need to tell Miss Lim the number of people going there because she will order lunch for us .
(:

the feeling of being alone .
im much more used to it .
i feel more comfortable .
let me forget my worries .
and run around like a kid .
when i look at my photos of when i was small ,
i seemed so happy ,
with a big wide smile .
but when i look into the mirror .
i look so horrible when i try to smile widely .
i ...
dont even know how im feeling right now ..
its just ..
that feeling ..
to know that i cant smile like last time .
have you ever felt ..
how it feels like to lose your smile ?
or trying to smile but failed after not smiling for years ?
can you feel what im feeling right now ?
do you know how it feels like ?!
it cant be explained through words .
its horrible ,
but its more than just that .

its ok ..
no need to care about me ..
i will face this alone , all by myself .
just leave me alone .


had so much fun with sister today .
死 sister ..
xD
hahas ..
just now sister ..
drop laptop , sling of the bag broke .
hahas .
wan chat through msn ..
keep going online then offline and online again .
smack you ar !
-.-
and hor ..
sister ..
dont smoke hor !
bad for your health .
sister show me de .
i read a short story ..
which was titled ' Teen Forced To Crossdress ' .
i pity that guy ..
got kicked in his XXXX .
by his girlfriend .
ouch !
that definitely hurts ..
):

sister still 8 years old seh .
play with swing also dont know how to stop wor .
aiyoyo .
be careful lar ..
you go malaysia msut buy something nice for me ok ?
thanks in advance .
(:
if you dont buy i force you to crossdress also .
xD

i cant be bothered anymore .
i leave you to do anything you wan .
flirt , have another stead ,
i dont care .
just do whatever you want .
im washing my hands of everything in my life .
really hope tomorrow's choir session would help me feel better .
haiz .
you go happy yourself .
dont bother about me .
since that one word is starting to fade away from my dictionary ..

go away .
i just wan to be alone .


haiz ..
yue qi ..
im so sorry ..
my brother lie to me say its only $5.50 ..
but its $9.50 .
T.T
and ..
Obama makes history !
the first black president of America !
(:
lols .

i dont wanna think about you anymore .
get out of my brain stupid !
haiz .
i give up ..
it never works ..
everytime i think of those time when we were together .
somehow i just feel ..
so sad ..
why ?
never mind .
i just wanna be alone ..
how great would it be ..
if kenneth was still alive .
then at least i wouldnt feel this horrible .

in this whole world ..
kenneth ..
you were the only one ,
who knew what i really wanted and desired ,
who could ever smile from the bottom of my heart ,
even though you were just my best friend ..
you were the only one ..
who understands me more than i understand myself .
who helped me find my own personality .
who been through so much with me ..
who knows how i really felt that any point of time even when i dont show how i feel .
who was with me when i was alone .
who made me feel so very secure ..
who helped me expressed my thoughts .
who joked with me and made me laugh so much in my life .
who gave me so much hope .
who showed me that there is always hope that the end of the tunnel .
who taught me many things ..
who played so much with me ..
and so much more things you did for me ..
no matter what ..
i will never forget you ..
now i that im think of you ..
this very second ..
i cant help but cry .
i really dont have much mood to do anything .
my life is all upside down .
how i wish you was here .
but i know you are always watching over me .
thank you . (:


1 . Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be?
- a sandbag .

2 . Does your profile song have any special meaning ?
- definitely .

3 . What song is stuck in your head?
- Crush by David Archuleta and Crazy by Simple Plan.

4 . Midnight, who were you texting?
- i was sleeping like a pig .

5 . What are you most worried about?
- bearbear .

6 . How different are you from three years ago?
- more retarded .

7 . Let a good friend/ex/bestfriend go this year?
- yups .

8 . When is the next time you will see the person you like?
- no idea .

9 . When was the last time you cried really badly?
- 2 days ago .

10. Do you like your life at the moment?
- bearbear ?

11. What are you currently frustrated with?
- almost everything in my life .

12. Do you have a friend that starts with the letter X?
- nope .

13. You want to get married?
- dont know .

14. is anything alive in your room?
- me ?

15. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
- yups .

16. Were any of your past relationships worth it?
- no idea .

17. Been in a hospital this year?
- yups . =x

18. According to your ex, are you pretty?
- yup , but who believes him seh ?

19. What's the last piercing you got?
- my ear piercing.

20. Do you know if anyone likes you?
- yups .

21. Talk to your exes?
- yup .

22. Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a c?
- if you say its his chinese name which starts with a C , then its a yes .

23. Do you have trust issues?
- definitely .

24. Do you currently have a hickey?
- huh ?

25. have you ever regretted letting someone go?
- I have no idea .

26. who is the last to sleep in your bed?
- obviously its me . -.-

27. How long does it take for you to take get ready?
- 45 minutes .
.
28. In the past week have you gotten your hair cut?
- nope .

29. Whose bed did you sleep in last?
- my own lar !

30. Has someone disappointed you recently?
- no idea .

31. Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?
- why not ? its possible if you try .

32. Do you still turn to your parents for advice?
- nope .

33. Ever have surgery?
- NO .

34. Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
- nope . their's is black and mine is brown .

35. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
- *no comments*

36. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
- yes ! (:

37. Do you want to see someone this very minute?
- no one .

38. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you and meant it?
- yup . if im not wrong that is ..

39. What do you think of your number 2 on your top friends?
- i have no number 2 in my top friends list . (:

40 . When was the last time you saw the 2nd person on your top friends?
- told you i dont have a number 2 right ??!! AHH !

41. What is bothering you right now?
- lots of stuff .

42. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
- not sure . probably .

43. What is in your wallet right now?
- science centre ticket , money , ez link card , etc .

44. Wallpaper on your computers desktop?
- dont know .

45. Wallpaper on your cell phone?
- bearbear . (:

46. Favorite shoes?
- my only and only black shoes .

47. Where was your default picture taken?
- huh ?

48. Do you like messages or comments better?
- messages .

49. Where do you work?
- thats for me to know and for you to find out . xD

50. What is the last thing you ate today?
- macdonalds .

51. What are you doing this weekend?
- slack .

52. What are you wearing?
- school uniform .

53. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
- sister . (:

54. If you could have one person with you right now who would it be?
- Kenneth .

55. Listening to?
- nothing .

56. Have you ever kissed anyone named Phillip?
- nope .

57. What do you smell like?
- nothing .

58. Eating?
- nope .

59. Have you hit someone today?
- Dhabitah .

60. Do you believe in a soul mate?
- definitely .

61. What do you wear to bed?
- pjs .

62. Are you excited for school?
- not really . unless you tell me its No Homework Day . (:

63. Do you burn easily in the sun?
- nope .

64. Have you ever been gambling?
- nope .

65. What is your dream car?
- a car from the 1950s . very expensive you know . (:

66. What did you do last weekend?
- slack .

67. What have you learned recently?
- nothing .

68. Have you bathed ?
- of course ! i dont wan to be so sticky and smelly .

69. What was the last text message you sent?
- Wa...when will be my turn be...haha..just joking..so good ar?

70. Have you ever had a crush on your sisters/brothers friend?
- nope .

71. How good is your eyesight?
- horrible .

72. What was the last thing you drank?
- Yeo's Winter Melon Tea . a gift from Dhabitah . (:

73. Whose house did you go to last?
- mine .

74. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
- myself .

75. Do you have someone you love ?
- yup .

76. What do you wear more: shorts, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants?
- none of the above .

77. Name three drinks you drank today?
- Winter Melon Tea , Ice Lemon Tea , Lipton Tea .

78. what are you excited about?
- nothing .

79. What is your dream phone?
- forgot .

80. Ever broken a promise?
- think so .

81. Favorite Yankee Candle scent?
- huh ?

82. Last birthday party attended?
- no one's .

83. Last vacation? Where?
- Batam .

84. Last time you prayed?
- weeks ago .

85. Where is your cell phone?
- on my wallet .

86. How many comments do you have?
- no idea .

87. What's your current relationship status?
- taken . (:

88. Are you happy today?Why?
- maybe .

89. Who will cut and paste this first ?
- no idea .

90. Someone with the same birthday as you?
- Huai Hui , Snotty_Scotty , and a few more ..

91. Are you mean?
- think so .

92. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
- yup .

93. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
- nope .

94. Current song you're listening to?
- nothing .

95. Is your birthday on a holiday?
- yups .

96. Have you ever been rushed to the emergency room?
- soon i suppose .

97. Last person to talk on the phone with you ?
- weiyu's brother .

98. Last person you hugged ?
- bearbear .

99. Last person you text messaged
- bearbear .

100. Last song you heard?
- Life by Yui Horie .

101. Do you you have work ?
- yups .


today go science centre again !
(:
weiyu ,
you are so getting it from me .
never come today .
i wan smack you tomorrow .
xD

went to the omni theatre with dhabitah .
together with 2/4 , some other classmates , 2/6 , and 2/7 .
and bearbear was there too !
=x
we watched Wild Ocean .
i was hugging him like mad during the whole thing .
and the way the narrator said ' sardines '
its super funny !

im sure bearbear enjoyed it too .
he must be the first bearbear to be inside Omni theatre .
lols .
later need to treat yue qi to sirloin steak .
):


haiz . missed that sirloin steak today .
never mind .
tomorrow go with yue qi .
my treat .
(:
QIQI hor ?
xD
lols !
im so dead if she sees this .
and bearbear was in my bag .
so ke lian .
so after lunch i took it out and play !
its so cute !
until weiyu wan molest .
T.T
no fear bearbear .
didnt let her touch you .
wan touch also i touch right ?
=x
joking lar .
i also dont wan touch .
just wan hug only .
(:
so cuddly .
bearbear ,
i will love you forever and ever .
put you in my arms forever .
who ask you so cute ..
:D

why am i still so bothered about you ?
is it because i still love you ?
or is it just for the simple reason that i wan to be friends with you ?
if i still love you like before ..
that what is that feeling i have for my boyfriend now ?
im really confused .
i dont know whats going on .
i have no idea how to deal with this situation .
what is this mixture of emotions i have right now ?
it doesnt feel good at all .
everything is going the wrong way .
maybe i should just go ahead and do what im planning to do .
a little of this . and a little of that .
i dont mind .
as long it is able to take this pain away .
i dont give a damn .


ahh !
stomach ache !
T.T
science centre trip today .
yay !
can smack shiya for not tagging my tagboard .
then later go IMM makan sirloin steak .
(:
today i bring bearbear with me go science centre today .
i really cant bear to put him at home and let him suffer that loneliness .
bearbear hor ?
xD

i would be very busy on wed .
haiz .
):

if you wan go out and play with me ,
please just get my number from somewhere and call for bookings please !
im really bored at home !
T.T


yawn ..
finally i get to use the com !
so sad ..
later my bro wake up cannot use le .
):
to all those people who care .
i just fainted .
it felt so horrible .
T.T
in the end when i came about ,
i kept saying : ' LALA .'
must be mad or something .
too much randomness .
sunday sucks .
no tv programme to watch .
haiz .
at least i finish reading Clicking Her Heels .
its so nice !
and it made me cry at some parts .
must read ok !
its a must !
(:

last but not least ,
bleah . (:

HUITING ♥
Hello :D
Huiting here ♥
Hope you tagged ! (:

& I'm sorry , but I can't be perfect .
Too bad if I fail to meet your so called 'standards' .
I wasn't born to meet them anyway .
(:





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